2/7/02
i'm very sick. and frustration
takes over. no new news. soon. hopefully. >;\ 1/26/02
i have to do this: PLEASE
click once here...i want my free immortality rings! you should, too! anyhow...hehee.
this new year is flying by like a..like i don't know. but it's almost february
and geewillickers if that isn't nutty in itself. LATEST WAKE NEWS: yess.
another loction found! i'm negotiating with them as i type this..but it seems
to be taking them FOREVER to get back to me on a date. i'm 99% sure we have
the venue, but the guy in charge of booking has another job and doesn't call
me back when he says he will! bad scotty! but i'm trying to be patient as this
will be one excellent excellent EXCELLENT location for wake. it's actually a
large, full nightclub, not a bar. there's a stage, BIG dancefloor, lots of staggered
seating, big mondo bar, vip lounge: awsome. i'm thinking in addition to WAKE,
i will be running a live gig night there: bands and guest deejays only. this
will be on a completely separate night from WAKE..we'll see. i've got antz in
my pantz over this new potential space...and i pray that i will know soon what
the final decision is (you hear me Lord?). i will update as i get more info.
wish me luck! 12/14/01
5:56pm i'm going to make
this clean and simple. just the facts. according to veronika: Wake is Not going
to happen at COPA in pasadena. why? because that bar is also, unfortunately,
run by FAGS. now. i DO HAVE gay friends. and they would understand my plight.
and there IS difference between a respectable gay male and a fucking FAG. i'll
explain: Wake was chased out of the last location at ENCOUNTERS (a gay male
bar in pasadena) because the owners and management were FAGS and wanted ONLY
FAG customers, ie, they did not like the fact that my gothic club Wake was open
to E V E R Y O N E and that ENCOUNTER'S OLD turd burglers (i.e. the "regulars")
that haunted the joint couldn't get ASS off of MY patrons! in other words, YOU!
(and i do apologize to anyone who was hit on by any disgusting, drunk FAG there
at ENCOUNTERS. i heard only a few complaints of this occurance from you all.
god. those fuckers had the nerve to complain that they weren't 'getting any'
and that this 'weird, witch-goth-thing' needed to go. so management voted us
out after 3 successful months.) anyhow. last night i went across the street
to COPA, another gay club. i didn't want to be..umm..'prejudiced' against FAG
bars and wanted to check out this other bar. it was clean and dark and beautiful
and i imagined Wake there. for 3 months they kept me on hold. i'd come in and
talk to the owners and they seemed interested. until last night. one nice FAG
owner says "welllll..we need to talk to DAVID..he's not PEOPLE PERSON so
i do alllllllllll the P.R. stuff..but this sounds good and your numbers look
good. ..he's out taking a nap in his car right now, though.." um. okay.
i drink a little merlot then go outside to find all 3 owners sitting around
talking. um. okay. so when i began to inquire as to when Wake can start up at
there this fucking FAG (the other owner DAVID), perched smugly upon 2 barstools,
chimes in "OOOOhhhhh no. that's just not going to happen. i won't open
the doors to THAT. that goes against what we're trying to have here..we're going
for the latino-chico thing HERE." oh.
god. we respectfully
exchanged a few more simple questions and answers. DAVID the FAG gives me MASS
amounts of unwarranted FAG ATTITUDE. so i calmly turned and went back inside.
i gathered my belongings and told my boyfriend oZ "we're leaving now, but
not before i burn a fucking bridge." i went outside to the 3 owners again,
reached across to shake the hand of the 'nice' one i had been talking to for
the past few months (and the one that undoubtedly had been leading me on), thanked
him kindly, then turned to that smug FAG DAVID and said..and i quote precisely
"but you know what? i wouldn't have my club here even if you fucking PAID
ME. you've got that same fucking FAG attitude...FUCK YOU." and walked away
before he could open his c*ck-sucking mouth. yeah, merry x-mas. i'm glad
i could share that. i feel better now. and the quest for the next location goes
on... 12/13/01
3:12pm: (i am at
home sick, what else is new. it's been months since i've updated this website.
luckily everything is good and current, so i need not be a slave to my website).
LATEST WAKE NEWS: i will be speaking with the owners of the prospective
new venue for Wake this friday, december 14th. if it all works out, Wake will
re-open in JANUARY!!! one of the owners seems really cool with the idea, so
with him on my side, hopefully i can talk the other two into giving us a shot
there. i'm so excited and incredibly hopeful. i will update saturday afternoon
with the latest info..stick Wake and i in your prayers tonight..please! 8/16/01
12:43pm:
hi..something NEW! Please check
out the two new links above for Wake's play lists
and the new Babylonian Tiles tour memoir page! 8/15/01
3:38pm: opening night for WAKE on July 14th was a total SUCCESS! the place
was packed liked i've never seen before in all of wake's years..and everyone
was having a great time. the second night, if you can believe it, was even more
successful..we had 50% more people show up to drink and dance the night away...we
think wake is finally finding it's niche and success here in pasadena..and it's
all because of YOU! i will be adding an extra link to this page so that you
may enjoy the DJ PLAY LISTS from wake...coming soon! 6/26/01
3:10pm: ahhh..i rise and shine like so much zombie rinsed in dawn liquid
detergent. we are all back from the very successful Babylonian
Tiles tour! in four big, whole pieces. it was an absolute blast, and we
plan on doing it again, although, most likely, in a couple of years. i met many
many swank and cool people on the road, saw the many many beautiful sides of
our country, and the not so beautiful, and was able to promote XXSoRRoWXX thru
some promo items and my dancing! in case you have No idea what the hell i'm
talking about, let me fill you in: i went on a u.s. tour with my good friend's
band Babylonian Tiles as their dancer, merch girl and assistant. we were away
from may 16th thru june 16th. basically, we played our way straight across the
u.s. going as far as coney island (i LOVED CYCLONE!! did it twice in a row..now
THAT is a roller coaster!). i really miss being out on the road because i love
to travel...and i now have lots of fond memories...fantastic ones! make sure
all of you attend the Grand Re-Opening of WAKE! the wake monster is turning
7 this year (i can't believe time has flown by like that) and we plan on making
this a night to remember. see you all there! 5/3/01
3:03am: veronika lesson 5.5: even though it may appear as if you're doing
kick-ass work, using your hours efficiently, just being a good old trooper,
dedicating yourself to your art, etc. etc. and all that happy b.s., you know,
you really should just check the fuckin time once in a while. simple eqaution:
work + sleep deprivation = big fuck ups and time wasted. NOW. who gives
if you're nocturnal, don't have a day job and sleep whenever the fuck you want
to.. AH! at some point your body and brain go "HEY, YOU FUCK!!!! SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!"
and you're supposed to respond "okay. i get off computer now"
and go to bed like so much zombie. now what happens when you ignore the undeniable
signs of exhaustion and death? (NO, not more coffee..YOU IS missing my
POINT!!) YOU spend WAY MORE time on simple shit that would've normally taken
you..like..LESS TIME!! (case in point: this took WAy too long to
tack up. i die now.) 4/21/01
2:52pm: happy robert smith's birthday! what a beautiful taurean day
it is. (where is my true love taurus, hm? if you're out there, throw a stick
at me or somthing..hee). fucka fucka fucka. so NOW NorthPoint went bankrupt
and ONCE again, threw me offline. FUCK. so a buncha sweethearts went down to
the shadowrealm on april 8th, only to find the mexican crew there all "wha?
wha club? no? no club!" i wasn't able to get to my site and change the
temp-date (the 8th)..and i actually didn't remember that it was up there til
somebody emailed me screaming. ouch. but anyhow, i suppose that's all over now,
so i'm back on the Wired. yay. i'm hungover like a wet sheet. i go back to bed.oh
wait! one note on wailing wall: PETER BROKE HIS THUMB! dude, he kept jumping
off the stage and finally ate it on the dance floor. he separated his tendon
from the bone or something, actually. PUNK ROCK! fuckin lushes.. 2/6/01
10:17pm: oh i know. i know..where's my latest, eh? like anybody reads this.
updates: wailing wall will be joining the ranks this sunday march 18th. peter's
a nut (the lead singer) and an awesome character, so please check these guys
out. very virgin prunes influenced...NOW: let's make an almost 2-month-long
story short: my last isp for my dsl was flashcom. as much as the second grade
class i teach could do a better (and more efficient) job at maintaining this
u.s.wide company, they did provide a butt-ass fast connection. well,
they filed chapter 11 on new year's and threatened to turn off my service on
the 15th of january. and to "avoid" all the "hassle" (quotes
from a letter they sent) of dealing w/out dsl service for a while, flashcom
said they'd "migrate" my ass over to the new isp, telocity
with a smile. well, after a long night out on the 12th of january..i came home
to find MY LIFELINE SEVERED. they cut me off early. i won't go into why it took
so long..ok, i will: they mixed my account with somebody named JON LE, lost
my order, told me they might not accept bank cards..anyhow, i JUST got back
online on march 2. not quite 'as' fast. so a great big FUCK YOU TELOSHITTY!!!
for keeping my ass on hold all this time. you kept me away from my website,
my email and my online friends..and once again MY JAMEY! oh well. true friendship
should have endured, so i suppose it was all a fucking sham? it was blessed
while it lasted. 2 years down the drain? i hope not, blackeyes...i pray not 12/31/00
9:49am: hey let's go. so my mom crawls out of my bed and washes up around
8am. we had a fucking blast. she's a riot. now i know where i get all my nuttiness
from. we went out drinking in old town, bought a bunch of cigars and beatle
cds and came back to my place and proceeded to drink even more. heh. we danced.
i showed her 'tunak tunak' from daler (thank you jamey..even tho we don't talk
anymore)..and took her to newgrounds.com. she loved it. now i'm hungover like
a wet sheet. and i'm loving it (really!)..(yay, the cat bus on totoro just went
by) i'm jumping in the t-bird and heading out to the santa barbara banana bungalows
for new years. fuck people. i'm going to hang out with a bunch of young travelling
brits..yeah! fuck pasadena. it's I N S A N I T Y right now with the rose parade
and all that shite. people are chalking up their spots for the rose parade along
colorado. Complete Insanity. really, it's not That eventful. i can't imagine
myself sleeping on a cold, filthy sidewalk with 1290847312984712309 revellers
screaming and puking all night and morning, just to be awoken by a barrage of
flower coated carcasses. HEH. whatever. i'm leaving, i'll update the site next
year. HEHH. so, in closing, i'll pull a booger out just for U and stick it under
one of my chairs. OH yeah, one more thing: you've created a fake reality
for yourself. why else are you here? 12/20/00
7:59pm: merry..err..hi kiddies! so here it
is, the latest news: we've got two bands that haven't played wake in almost
5 years performing in jan. and feb..that being babylonian tiles and stone 588,
very old friends of mine (time-wise not age-wise! hehe) please check them out,
they actually do have something a lot of bands lack these days: TALENT. you
like good music? then it's simple. come see them perform and support an artist
or two, will ya? i also plan to revamp the images page some year, and create
the main bubastis.com page that will link you to different projects run by me:
wake/the shadowrealm, bubastis recordings and a possible online store of pagan
crafts and art. i will also be getting my ass in the studio with the great william
faith to record my first full-length cd for xxSoRRoWxx; my solo musical endeavor.
it being the bloody holidays and all, i thought i'd plug my first ever musical
release 'the little drummer boy' it's found on a gothic holiday compilation
called 'excelsis, a dark noel,' and is available nationwide and on sale now
at www.projekt.com. i am song #10, and i am on the front cover (the dark angel).
oh yah, and my song is in the movie 'reindeer games'! welllllll, that about
updates you all..and in case you're still listening, email me now and get into
the shadowrealm FOR FREE plus a guest, alright? just mention something about
the info page, so go click contact and see you at THE SHADOWREALM. 10/15/00
6:31pm: sorry about this page being down for so long...i'll explain later
(hehe). well, tomorrow is the big ATTRITION show at THE SHADOWREALM. i'm so
excited about it I'm practically dreaming about it every night. really! (awww)
i just have so much respect for these people, their talent, their drive, &
their longevity! not too many bands that have been around for over a decade,
have kept great musical consistency, and kept their fans and audiences actually
anticipating more. ATTRITION is one of those few bands. they are truly the pioneers
of dark industrial. they Are the root system. i really do anticipate an awesome
turn-out and an incredible show. shit..my kitten whiskey is crawling inside
my guitar amp..gotta go.. 8/23/00
2:23am: unfortunately more server problems. actually my ftp program wouldn't
allow me in, but that's fixed and figured now, i will be uploading all the updates
now. working out the bugs. finally. i've decided to turn this info page into
the information/news/updates/ramblings page. and just to see if you are still
paying attention: i will put the first people who contact
me on the guest list. yes. this means you don't have to pay. i will sport
you a night at my club, just for reading all this happy bullshit. hee. i hope
i made somebody's night. 8/18/00
1:46am: ...if you liked what you've read, hated it, want to ask something,
or are just plain bored and want to get on the emailing list, email me! I'm
at wake@bubastis.com or just click the
contact link. the fucking email on my server has gone down...some s.o.b. has
fucked with him. fun. so. basically, for the past two months i haven't been
able to receive ANY email from this site so..that's shitty. and wow. i just
found that out today. i feel like killing. well, i've changed all the links
in the site, so now i'll get some dang email from this place. my apologies to
anyone who has emailed and didn't receive a reply...i wasn't ignoring you, i
just didn't receive it! hell, i don't even know if anybody reads any of this
shite...i was thinking about changing the events page into my ramblings page...so
much goes on with me and this club, i figured if there's anybody reading, i
suppose that means there's people interested in what i have to...ramble about?
(well, i did that to the info page..wah ha!)
wait. it's always been like that, no? well, i have gotten a 'little' shit, now and again. but no fear, as it's been from a very small-penised (is that a word? penised? it is NOW!) minority of people out there: aging, worthless, egotistical and MANIACAL people who have "had it up TO HERE" with the likes of little shits like me! god forbid i tell how i feel. oh, god, please stop me! i might 'ruin' your image. Fuck You.
note to the world: you are entitled to your own opinion and views. you are entitled to speak and write these opinions and views. and if you have a website..EXERCIZE YOUR RIGHTS! (but please; don't lie. don't exaggerate, people. for all will be told in the end, all we be found out, brought to light and brought to truth. in the end YOU end up being the asshole if you go about expressing yourself the WRONG way, by lying. just keep honest with others AND ESPECIALLY yourself, k?) and this is what i have done. most people read what i have to say and probably think "cool." or "whatever" or "that sucks that she encountered such a fucker." but when THAT FUCKER reads what you THINK OF HIM/HER..they trip. why? it's called GUILT.
if i knew in my heart, i had acted like an asshole to someone..if i knew in my heart that i've done people (or even just one person) wrong, done them an injustice, was rude to them, etc..THEY WOULD HAVE THE RIGHT TO ANY OPINION OF ME. YOU even have the right to call me on it. now. if it's a straight LIE, then expect a phone call from me to clear it up. i'm not into online games or "flaming". i'm into taking care of REALITY.
NOW these aforementioned twits were GUILTY of being ASSHOLES. so...they drop me little wimpy, whiney fucking emails, pissing and moaning about "you can't do that! you can't DEFAME MY NAME!".. OH MY GOD. first off, do you know how ultra PATHETIC that reads to me? or anyone with sense? i promise you: if anybody 'figures out' who they are on MY SHIT LIST, and drops me a fucking email instead of calling, damn straight i'm posting it here to expose what a twit you are. so god..just leave it alone, okay?
the persons on MY SHIT LIST pissed me off. treated me unfairly. disrespected me for no reason (is there ever really a good reason to disrespect somebody? i'm talking BLATANT here..) were unbelievable ASSHOLES to me. but, luckily, there are only a few. some people are in the music scene, some people are promoters, some people are out of state, some people are fucking co-workers. some people are complete strangers that i just happened to get the name of. but this, MY SHIT LIST, is for everyone to enjoy..enjoy knowing that, short of being a published writer, i can speak up for myself and cast an ugly and deserving shadow over the ASSHOLES in life. even in your life! and chances are, they'll end up on YOUR SHIT LIST someday, too. Because TRUE ASSHOLES thrive on making others miserable to compensate for their own lack-luster, pathetic lives. SO LISTEN UP ASSHOLES..WE'RE OUT THERE! WE'RE LISTENING! AND WE'RE READY TO TELL THE WORLD WHO YOU ARE!
oh yeah: i don't lie. i can't stand being around negative people, liars, fakers, idiots. am i being a negative jerk now? well..people piss me off. people piss off people everyday and don't even know it. basically, i'm just tired of holding it in, just THINKING about these ASSHOLES..i want to expose said ASSHOLES. so if you TICK ME OFF, DO ME AN INJUSTICE OR I HAVE JUST CAUSE IN MY LITTLE WORLD TO THINK YOU SUCK, i'm going to post it RIGHT HERE. now. i've decided to not use full names. just first name and last initial. or last name and first initial. therefore if you threaten to sue (oh, god!), i'm cleared. but again..as i've said time and time again..if the inference fits, baby...anyhow..before any of that gets going, I need to design some SHIT LIST jpgs and what have you. and now that i think about it..i'm going to make something akin to "these people ROCK" jpgs as well. hm.
to be continued..
4/7/02
sorry i haven't updated in a while. been sick. been busy. been in personal bliss (hinow). been sick.
ANYHOW: no news as of yet; health is not permitting the amount of Wake work
i need to be doing. but soon. i have a couple of ideas for venues but yet to
check them out. i will update when i have news! til then..if you want to be
the first on your block with shiniest and newest Wake News, make contact and
join the emailing list by dropping me a little note.
i also want to say THANK YOU to all the kick ass, old school heads out there that
have been dropping me letters of praise and thanks..now YOU guys ROCK and keep
me inspired! especially those of you writing from out of state..thank you for
your continued enthusiasm and support...see you VERY soon...
i want to extend a very warm ThankYou to all the wonderful people who have been
writing me over the past year since Wake's revival..it's incredibly heartening
to open my email and reminisce over all the weird and wonderful times we've
shared at Wake over the past...EIGHT YEARS. fuck. i can't believe it's been
that long. i just turned 27 in november, and i opened Wake when i was 19..my
god. that's 100% spooky. things have changed so damned much..but the best part
of all is all the kick-ass people who STILL come to Wake: you all truly are
in a class of your own. and i'm glad we're finally all saying 'hello' to eachother
and getting to know one another on this crazy 'adult-level' now. hee. i never
grew up. stuck in a time warp..still driven with passion for my dear baby Wake.
Wake Wake Wake: we'll be back.
i get asked (around 1:00am) to play some incredible ethereal and gothic song
requests..the only thing is that my set (DJ SoRRoW) is from 9pm - 10:30 and
that is when you'll hear all the macabre, meloncholia and ethereal. around 10:30
DJ Archangel picks up the atmosphere with a little sisters of mercy, depeche
mode or project pitchfork. again around midnight i spin a gothic set for about
35 minutes, consisting of classic deathrock, 80's gothic & dark dance..the
frenzy continues with DJ Archangel...and we all spin into oblivion til last
call..(yaaay!)
4/25/01
7:38pm: happy taurus birthday!! still can't seem to find that taurus (look
at me: putting a single's personal ad on my club website...what the hell is
my problem). anyhow, the shadowrealm is now officially closed.
forever. why? honestly? because i did not enjoy my working partnership with
the other half of the club, ie, blade rhino of gothic beach studio (he was vampiricus).
and if you ever hear of the shadowrealm reopening, wake has nothing to do with
it, nor will it be anything like the original we created. or i created, i should
say. i think i had better wait a while before i reveal anymore info on this
matter. and if you happen to be a close friend of blade, or whatever, he knows
how i felt about our partnership: and i'm not happy about it. this is my website,
and MY opinions, so there!!! hehehe...